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For me, I just want my own place to live. Don't get me wrong, I love living here with my grandmother, buuut, wouldn't my own place be nice? Damn you, money for not growing on a magic tree in my backyard! I don't know. Right now, it's just like, "would you like to come and chill out in my bedroom? lame." You know? Wouldn't it be awesome to have my own little apartment? 1 bedroom, a living room, kitchen, bathroom. 4 rooms. Of my own. Well, and the dogs. <3.

I'm under a lot of pressure... self-imposed. It's like I've created this timeline for myself and I don't want to take longer to get there than need be. I just want to be able to invite people over and have dinner and watch a movie or play fucking Scene It on the fucking X-Box. Just like I used to do when I basically lived at Anthony's. I fucking loved inviting people over. I loved playing mini-hostess. It was so fun! *kicks Anthony for ruining it* About Anthony, I don't know. I love him. Damn it. Let's talk about non-Anthony issues, shall we?

My job at the museum is great. Things are back to normal, as much as that can mean. I really, really, REALLY wish I made more than minimum wage. That sucks. And it's just another problem with my life. If I made $8.25/hr that would be so much better. But, it's difficult to find a job that will work with my weirdo school schedule. I wouldn't mind going on with the museum but if I could find another job that paid better, I'd be forced to take it because, $7.25 just isn't enough for what we do... it really isn't. We clean constantly, we take tickets, tell the rules, monitor the kids, replace supplies. And now, we're supposed to be helping facilitate the art activities--which is wonderful but it ain't minimum wage wonderful. You know? You want me to take on leading activities in addition to the other things I do? I will require more money. Lol

In other "omg... my life..." news: I cannot find a crochet star pattern that I like. I want to crochet some stars and I can't find a damn pattern that works right and I tried 3 different ones last night and ugh ugh ugh. I'm working on one myself though. I really want a sewing machine... I really want to not have school loans, I really want to win the effing lottery and, on top of all of this, ABC cancelled Eastwick! FUCKING FUCK NUCLEAR EXPLOSION ALL UP IN YOUR FACE, ABC!

*sigh*

This is my life, I need to take control of it. It's gotten so blah lately. I need to remedy it. Laaaaaaaaaaaame.

Well, I'm going to try and actually update this thing more often!! Why? I don't know. Anyway, all I've been doing is crocheting, going to work and going to class. I'm entering an art show in March (and I've yet to start the piece for it. lame). I want to get the BFA at UofL but I'm looking at, at least another semester, but, more than likely, it will be another YEAR... as an undergrad. UGH! Everyone, however, has told me that the BFA carries more weight, professionally (which is true) and that having a BFA will help me get into Master's programs... anoooooother year. LAME!! I don't want any loans though, so I'm going to save and see what happens. I'm so over loans!!!

In job news, well, it's all blown over. However, that doesn't mean that I'm the same go-along team player that I was. Eff that. I'm not writing in the journal and I'm not putting myself at risk for anything. If something as innocent as "I saw a ghost" gets me a "red flag" then, potentially, anything I say might be taken out of context and used against me. So, I'm going to pass on all of that mess.

In boy news: No new boyfriend. Things with Anthony are... "things." I don't know. I love him, I do, but I'm not his fucking booty call. He's confusing. He sends me text messages with stuff like, "hi <3!" in it... which leads me to think one thing but he... I don't know. I know it's cliche, but once I started to love and value myself, the more irritated I became with his behavior and attitude. So, I guess, "we'll see," is still in effect.

In TV news: omg, I love Eastwick. And I shouldn't. It's campy and goofy but I'm all about it! I love me some Johanna! I haven't watched "V" and I don't like "Stargate Universe." Why isn't Lost back on yet???

oh well. I'm crocheting scarves and hats in order to donate them to charity. Yes, I'm fucking perfect. Blah. Oh, and I hate kids. Working with them has made me hate them. I'm NOT giving up my life, freedom and money to raise a screaming, smelly, drooling, leaking, pooping child! Noooooo way. I would gladly trade anything to have the child I lost back, but, that was my one shot at it. I'll have to be tricked into it next time... which there won't be a next time, but I digress.

And I've successfully lost my car keys. I need a nap and a hug. :)

Most of you are on my facebook (facebook.com/cinnabunny), so you kinda know what's what with me. I don't really update this anymore, but I read it all the time. I guess I stopped updating because, a) I got too busy, b) Anthony got mad when I talked about him and, c) facebook. Lol

I'm sick... I think. I felt better earlier and now I'm back to being woozy and fevery. The fuck?

School is obnoxious. I'm only taking 3 classes but it's so annoying. Really. I'm just soooo tired of school and I still have 2 years of grade school. My classes are great, I'm just burnt out. I need to win the lottery so I can have a year to do what I want. Don't we all though? Oh well.

I could tell you about developments between Anthony and me but, he HATES when I share the details of my life with other people when said details concern him and, well, I still don't know what's going on with us. Earlier, I sent him a text message by accident (it was supposed to go to my sister) and he goes, "sending messages to your other boyfriends?" Hmmm. "Other" boyfriends? Doesn't that insinuate that he's my boyfriend? Honestly, I still have trust issues with him though, I don't really trust him as much as I used to. Trust has to be earned and he's not really earning it. I'm not even sure what he wants and I stopped living my life based on what he wants.

Okay, so, I'm currently watching something called "Ghost Adventures" on the Travel Chanel and, um, it's ridiculous. Really? Example dialogue:

"No way! Did you hear that noise, bro?"
"Dude! I totally felt scratches, bro!"
"Aw, I got a sudden headache, bro, you know it! There's a ghost in here, bro!"

Um... really? I'm in love with this hot mess of a tv show now!

Change of subject: I think it's kind of a bad idea but, my friends Kendra and Stephanie have a female chihuahua and the idea of breeding her with Fenix has arisen. Part of me wants to because, um, puppies! But, I know that there are already tons of puppies. And, while there may not be a lot of chihuahuas in the shelters here in Ky, I've heard that chihuahuas are overcrowded in places like LA and Miami and it breaks my heart because dogs are better than people. Just seriously.

My birthday is coming up soon. I want Hello Kitty junk OR the Nana anime!! http://www.amazon.com/Nana-Uncut-Box-Set-Vol/dp/B0021R4IJ4/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=dvd&qid=1255152767&sr=8-1
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant!!!!!!

Also, it would be nice to officially have my bf back for my birthday. Just sayin'.

I made another book tonight and I did take pictures, but they will wait until tomorrow (or until I finish that stupid art history paper). The news is that, well, so, before, when anyone would ask if Anthony and I lived together, his answer was 'no'. He'd say that I just stay with him a lot. The other day, Mr. Morgan asked him that same question and, this time, he said yes! He said that my stuff is still at gran's because there isn't any room here. I mean, I wish I could explain how MONUMENTAL it is for him to say that. Anthony lived with his last girlfriend and that was a disaster (good for me, right?) but, she moved in with him after about 4 months, so Anthony has been gunshy about the subject. But, you know, Anthony and I have been together for ALMOST TWO YEARS!!!! WHAT? Lol It's only 4 more months until our two year anniversary. Isn't that crazy talk? Wonderful, happy, lovely crazy talk? I miss him right now. He's at Morehead University doing the joint FTX thing with the ROTC. He won't be back until SUNDAY!! :( I'll be alone for 2 days. Lame. Tomorrow, I have to write this paper (ugh) and go up to the library to do research for Anthony and I'd like to finish some of the studies for fiber class tomorrow as well.

It's super awesome that I can feel not guilty about feeling like this is my home, you know? *is happy*

Anthony wants me to write a children's book. He's like, "write it, draw it and I can sell it!" I guess he figures we'll get rich one day off of my doodles. Lol I love that man with everything I have. Gross, right?

I'm so over college. Lol. I want to move to a state where a master's degree isn't required to teach. Blah.

Other than that, well, nothing much is going on, not that I really want to talk about. It's getting to be March Madness around Ky and it's, kind of a big deal. I'm excited.

Not doing anything for Spring Break. Not even working because the labs are closed. So... ick. I need tampons! DAMN! I forgot! I have to run to the grocery store. Wonderful. UGH! :(

So, basically, yes, Louisville is under 2 inches of ice and 4 inches of snow. There are about 250,000 people without power. We had to rescue granny and the dogs yesterday because she's out of power. She went to Aunt Fay's a few minutes ago, but the dogs are here at Anthony's with me. My car is under ice and snow and there are branches everywhere and power lines are down. *sigh* UofL has been closed wince Tuesday, JCPS is closed the rest of the week and UofL will probably be closed tomorrow. Anthony and some girl are outside shoveling snow around cars. I'm in the house with the dogs.

Check it out! Pirate Captain Boots!!

There's picture of the cat (aka Boots) on my facebook! BOOOOOOOOTS!!!

Well, turns out that Hetare (his name now. it means 'lazy') is sick. We took him to the vet and he has bad ear mites and a fever of 104. He was throwing up last night and not eating. He threw up while we were at the vet's office and so they decided to keep him overnight just to make sure that he's not going to get dehydrated. Plus, he couldn't keep down the medicine they gave him so, yeah. He might have to get an IV put in he he keeps vomiting and not eating. Poor kitty!!!!! Hopefully he'll be okay. Anthony's mom is going to take him, so we'll run him up there around Christmas. I'll miss the kitty though!!! :(
Anthony said, "If they had to put the cat to sleep for some reason, I was just going to tell you that a nice family wanted to adopt it so I let them. I couldn't tell you that it died." AWWW!!!! It's true though, you guys know that about me--I'd have sobbed like crazy!

So, kitten is in the doc's overnight, Anthony is at his place working on his paper and I'm at my place, being bored as fuck all. The thing is, when he works on homework, he likes to be alone, no distractions. Being the good girlfriend that I am, I give him his space to work. Even though I miss him and I wish I was there with him now. Oh well. I'll talk to him later again and I'll see him tomorrow for sure! I guess I'll go play XBox since I have no homework to do (YAY!)

Okay, so guess what I found? Well, I went to buy a new coat because I left my pink one in my car during the summer and when I went to remove it, the sun had bleached big spots on it. LAME! I spent $100 on a new GORGEOUS double-breasted military style pea coat. It's gorge.

Also, it's currently cold and rainy outside and, as I left this afternoon with my new purchase, something ran out from under a car and stood in the middle of the parking lot. What was this thing? A small grey and white kitten with no tail. Ugh. Cats.

So, it runs over to me and it's purring and I'm like, "I can't leave you out here Homeless Kitty!" I looked around, no one was looking for it or anything so, um, what to do? I did the only thing I could do... I brought it back to Anthony's place. Oops. So, now, the cat, aka LAZIEST KITTEN EVER, is chillin'. Anthony doesn't know if he'll keep it (but signs look promising!!) It's a boy cat, so there is neutering in his future.

Seriously, this is the laziest effing cat. I know cats aren't as active (or awesome) as dogs, but, wtf? I guess he's a manx because it doesn't look like his tail was docked (do they do that to cats?) but, he's also pretty strange for a cat. He's a weirdo. I had to go and buy litter and stuff. I'll take him to the vet tomorrow to have him scanned for a microchip, but I doubt he has one. Anyway, ugh, cats. I'm a dog person! Why couldn't I have found a puppy? Lol.

But, yay cats! Lol.

have you seen the Levi's 501 commercial with the skeevy couple walking up the stairs taking their clothes off? The guy goes, "I'm not really in a band," as he takes his shirt off. The girl unbuttons her pants and says, "that's okay, I don't really work for a record label."

Okay, so far, we've established that these two people are about to engage in some sort of sexual encounter and they barely know each other. Levi's apparently wants you to run the risk of contracting a horrible sexually transmitted disease while wearing their blue jeans. As the commercial continues, we find out that our male protagonist is homeless and living in his car. More clothes are falling to the floor as the couple enter the bedroom, making out and surely giving each other herpes. It's at this point that the lovely leading lady says, "That's okay, this isn't my house." The lights flip on and the audience sees a charming picture of a loving black family hanging on the wall.

Now, this means that Levi's is encouraging promiscuity, dangerous, random hook-ups with strangers AND breaking and entering.

Why is that on television? Who envisioned that the premise of that commercial was a good idea, that watching two people commit crimes and possibly needing the morning after pill and STD testing will help sell jeans? Really? That commercial offends me.

Remember when I used to update this thing, maybe 2 or 3 times PER DAY and now I'm lucky if I update once a week. There isn't much going on with me other than the usual stuff. I've lost about 5 pounds, which is hella awesome!! I'm working on a handmade basket for papermaking class (there will be pictures!!) and this Sunday I'm going to, hopefully, be observing a workshop for altered books. I already alter books but this is a workshop so... yeah. I can't participate because I didn't pay the fee, but since it's being held in the fiber room, Lida said that I could maybe just observe. NEAT!

Saturday is going to be BUSY AS HAIL! Basically, this is the rundown of stuff we hafta do:

Meet up with Anthony' dad and his new gf
Eat lunch
go bowling (ugh)
Go to the Diwali celebration (maybe)
Eat dinner with Tommy
Go out with Tommy and his date.

All on Saturday. WTF? Busy, busy, busy.

Anthony has applied for a summer trip to Japan and he's bugging me like CRAZY to go. It's for a month. I wouldn't mind going, honestly, and it would be with him which would be dreamy but... I don't have the $6000 for the trip. Neither does he, incidentally. He's applying for scholarships and stuff. Part of me wants to go but another part of me wants to stay here and take summer classes so I can graduate in the fall like I'm supposed to! Regardless, I'd probably still graduate in the fall, but it's the idea of taking it easy for my last semester, you know? Anyway, as usual, I wrote the essay responses for his application. So, we'll see how it goes.

So, my basket is looking pretty fucking cool. It's more of a bowl than a basket. I made it out of reeds which were soaked in water so they would be flexible. Then, the reeds were shaped into ovals and secured simply from the tension of other reeds, making a sphere. Once it dried a few days later, it was cut in half producing 2 bowls. Dan and I were a team, so he got one half and I got the other. Now, I'm using linen twine to embellish (and secure) the reeds. It looks like spider webs! It's kind of cool beans! I can't wait for it to be done!!

I'm still sick with bronchitis, though, I am on the mend. This semester is almost over and I can relax for a month before I head back for my NEXT TO LAST SEMESTER!! HOORAY!!

Well, I guess, since I'm at work (and there's no one here as usual), I'll start on my basket again. Yay!

... because I have to get to work, last night, after NBC called the election for Obama, Anthony's neighbor (a black guy) goes, "The first black president! I'll never have to work again!!!"

Omg. ROFL!! It only gets better! LOL!

But, you know, people are like, "black guy in white house!!" well, what about all the black senators and congressmen and congressWOMEN (even more uncommon) and all the "minorities" who have been serving for decades in office? I mean, are their accomplishments somehow less important? Wtf? Black people have done other things, you know?

I also saw this sign on someone's car today:

Dear Black People,
Obama is President of the USA.

You're Welcome.

From,
White People


Okay, I'm officially going to be late for work, I think.

OMG, you guys. There is a huge fucking cricket on my curtain. Omg. What do I do? It's so close to me right now. I hate bugs, yo. What if it jumps on me? Omg. I don't want to do anything because I'm afraid it will touch me. :(

Anyway, KRIS RULES SO HARDCORE!!!!!!!1 You have no idea how cool she is!!! OMG! She bought me birthday prezzies!! She bought me the 1st season of American Dad and the first volume of She-Ra on dvd!!! OMG! I spent hours watching She-Ra! OMG OMG!! *hugs Kris* Thank you so much!! I totally looooove these!!!
And it's funny, because Anthony goes, "WHO is he??" and I said, "She!" and he was like, "oh, okay." LOL! Cute! ♥

But, thank you, Kris!! *hugs and loves*

So, my birthday was yesterday and it was, well, disappointing. I don't know. I know that Anthony said we'd go out today to 4th street and stuff for my birthday, but, I was still bummed out that there weren't any fireworks on my actual birthday. I bought myself a cupcake, because Anthony didn't buy me a cake or a card or anything. I know that I shouldn't expect things, but, deep down, I did expect something. Especially because last year he surprised me with flowers and gifts and lunch.

The 24th came and went. We got up this morning, got ready and left. I sort of expected that we'd stop for lunch or something. We went to 4th street and walked around the bookstore and then we went to Wal-Mart. On my birthday. Anthony told me a few days ago that he needed to be back home by 1 because he was going to do some sort of raid in WarHammer, we'd be here for a few hours and then we'd go out later to eat dinner or something. So, okay. I was just happy to be doing something... even if it was Wal-Mart. Ha ha. Right?

Anyway, we get back here (his place), walk up the stairs, he opens the door and all I see are lots of pink streamers and I hear, "SURPRISE!!" and the whole room was filled with people! Russ, Emily, Sarah, Jesse, and Tommy were here and there were decorations all over the place! Anthony bought me a huge ice cream cake and he came out of the kitchen with candles on it and everyone sang Happy Birthday and I was just... flabbergasted. I've never had a birthday party, let alone a surprise party. I can't believe that Anthony lied to me about the whole day. He kept me disappointed yesterday just to make today even better! Emily bought me a beautiful wrap/scarf and a picture frame. Sarah bought me Hello Kitty goodies and Sleeping Beauty on dvd, Russ bought me Watchmen (the comic book) and Tommy bought me Silent Hill Homecoming. I was just so, so, so, amazed and grateful and it was wonderful!! After we had cake, we went out to lunch! Not just any lunch! Anthony knows I love Middle Eastern food and he did some research and found a great restaurant on Frankfort Avenue for us all to go to!! Katy and her boyfriend Andrew showed up to eat with us and we had a great time! The food was so FANTASTIC! After lunch, we all came back here and played Rock Band until about 7pm.

As if that wasn't enough, after everyone had gone, Anthony called the next door neighbor (the one that owns the HUGE house) and we got to go over there for a tour of the mansion! So, we were inside that huge, gorgeous house! You would be stunned to see the gorgeous original wood in there, the inlaid floors, the fire places, everything! Plus, the owner told me I could come back any time I wanted to and take more pictures, especially in the daylight!

I have lots of pictures!! There isn't anything that can top this day for me, I don't think. I'm just so grateful to everyone and I'm so blessed with Anthony and my friends and you guys!!! Thank you so much for remembering my birthday and wishing me a happy one! I had a super happy birthday!! Just... wow.

So, I mean, I just...

You know what? I don't like Obama either, but, if I hear one more person say that he's a Muslim, I'm going to scream!! Not only is it wrong but, more importantly, WHAT DOES IT FUCKING MATTER WHAT HIS RELIGION IS?? Muslims aren't bad people! Look how many SHITTY Christian presidents we've had! OMG! *anger*!!!!!

It's just like the morons who assume that Sarah Palin is dumb. Why? Obviously, she's not an unintelligent person. STOP ASSUMING SHIT! OMG! I hate this election already!! And you know how it's going to be, right?

Obama wins: everything he does will be PERFECT for the people who support him and they'll defend his dumbass decisions regardless. Just like that sleezy shitball, Clinton. Republicans will REFUSE to admit it if Obama does anything positive and helpful and will instead say that it was the Republicans in the Congress.

McCain wins: everything he does will be HORRIBLE for people who voted for Obama. OMG. I don't care if he cures AIDS and cancer at the same motherfucking time, people will still liken him to a nazi or something and say that it as the Dems in Congress who are responsible. Republicans will gloat and never shut up.

OMG!! I think we should decide to dabble in monarchy.

So, woodeneternity posted this in her lj, and I am going to as well because it's the funniest fucking thing E-V-A-R!! Watch it and rofl!!!!

Well, my art project is doing FUCKING GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why? I found little grommets!! OMG, it's so gorgeous!! You have noooo idea how much I love it so far! I spent $12 at Hancock Fabrics getting 75 little eyelet/grommet things and some silver jewelery wire. I brought my paper and stuff with me to work today (where I am currently) in order to hammer in the grommets. Well, 2 hours and half of the piece later, I'm so totally out of grommets. Blah. I went through seventy-fucking-five of them! Can you believe that? So, this means that I have to head back to get more. I have a WHOPPING $60 in my bank account. UGH. That $60 will need to last for 2 weeks. Ha ha ha ha ha.

So, I figure, another $10 at Hancock and some groceries and that's about it. LAMES. Oh well.

In other news, Anthony is thinking about dropping out of the fraternity. *whew* I think he'll blame me, as in, "well, you hated the idea of me doing and you always gave me grief about it..." which is true, but I joke more than anything. I mean, he had to make a paddle with his name on it and the name of his "big brother." In the end, I even made the damn thing!!! I'm the one who put it together and all of that stuff. I teased him about it being a little on the homo-erotic side. Ha ha. But, the truth is that it's expensive and time consuming being a member of a fraternity and he doesn't want to put in the time just so he can go and play intramural sports every other weekend, you know? I think that's the only reason he wanted to do it in the first place--so, he'd have some people to go play soccer with on the weekends. He hasn't dropped out yet, but, I don't know, we'll see. I told him that it's his decision.

Oooookaaaay, so, I totally think this guy in here is jackin' it. Either that or he's breathing heavy and moving his arm for nothing. He's been in here for about 40 minutes. He's the only one in here, but I'm not about to walk over there. He's not typing anything and I only hear the mouse click every few minutes. What do I do? He was in here last week, acting suspicious. What if he does this all the time??? When he leaves, I'll check his browser history. Ewwwwwwwwwwww. If there's porn in the cache dated from his time on that machine, I'll report him. See, this is exactly why we need some sort of security on these machines. We used to kick people out of SCC all the time for looking at porn.
Okay, so I walked around, picking up the mess and, he moved his hand up really quick from under the desk. I sat back down, 5 seconds later, his hand went back under the desk. OMG! The way these things are set up, you can't really see under the desk at all, so I couldn't tell if he has his wiener out or not, but I think he does. WTF? GROSS! I'll be here for 40 more minutes, so... barf. Plus, when I was cleaning up, I found a 2x4 with duct tape on the end of it!! A weapon?? Strange things are afoot in the Davidson labs today. I fucking hate Davidson!! I'm really nervous about this guy... what if he goes psycho and starts killing me? That would suck ass. I'm not comfortable with some weird stranger playing with himself with me in the room. I'd call DPS but I have no proof that this guy is doing anything. GAG.

EDIT: So, another student walks in and sits down in the back row and the guy quickly pulls his hand up and leaves it out... uh, but now he's slowly slid it back under the desk. As if that's not obvious. GROSS!